Sailing Through Life

Crystal Sailing

Crystal MF’n Nuding – Captain of her own life

I sailed for the first time recently. It was an absolutely fantastic experience. I’ve been on motor boats, ski boats, fishing boats, pontoon boats, but never a sail boat, not even a little one.

When we first got on the boat I immediately noticed how the sails were connected by different color ropes, red, blue, green, so you can see clearly what you’re working with. Very clever. Of course you need different colors, can you imagine the confusion?

With a nice breezy day on the lake we had a very “sporty” ride.  Sail boat rides are much different from your typical boat ride. It is definitely an interactive experience. The seating is not as plentiful (or comfortable) and we didn’t know where to go to be out of the way.

Our very first turn after really getting out on the water had us leaned back against the side rails, almost touching the water, looking almost directly up at the person across. The pressure was strong and moving around or changing position was not an option. It was a bit harsh being trapped and unable to sit up. Back uncomfortable, seat wet.

But comes the inevitable turn (life always takes a turn) and we were back on top. I got better footing. Previous experience told me I didn’t want to be trapped on my back again. I found a different position so when we took the next turn I was upright with my center of gravity low for balance. With my feet under me I was able to maneuver the waves and lean into the turn.

Even further down under the boat is the keel, a weight essentially, of concrete and steel weighing approx 6,000lbs. The vessel will never capsize. No matter how far it leans to the right or to the left (Starboard or Port), something up top will fail before the boat would turn over. Such is the safety and wellbeing(ness) of our own lives. The Divine, God, the Universe is that weight that keeps the boat upright.

We all know money can’t buy happiness, security, worthiness, peace or joy. All of these things are within ourselves. Like the little cabin deep inside the boat. It is there whether you utilize it or not.

It may get rough or rocky, but breathe and relax as best you can until you reach the next turn that puts you back on top. Recognize where you lost your footing or how your seating could be better next time and make those adjustments. Make yourself more comfortable, be prepared by knowing where you’ll lean for support. Secure yourself. Root yourself firmly in your own center because you will turn again and this time it will be an adventure.

This is the reason for life and why we are here. To have these adventures and to eat good food and meet wonderful people and have experiences we haven’t yet had. Once you recognize this and know how to navigate, you’ll never worry or fear anything ever again.

It’s just a ride.

Here’s to your own smooth sailing.

With Much Love,
Crystal

Much Appreciation… For The Inspiration

The very kind and talented Ganesh Raam has nominated my blog, crystalnuding for the Shine On and Reality Blog Awards.  I am truly honored to get this nomination from Ganesh as I have so enjoyed his writings. Please check out his blog here –  http://ganeshraam.wordpress.com/.

Thank you so much, Ganesh for nominating me.  I have only been blogging for a couple of months, and your kind words are genuinely appreciated. The connections made and felt throughout our global WordPress community thrill me to no end. It is a powerful thing to join hearts and minds across our wondrous planet. The possibilities are infinite.  Many blessings to each of you.

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Shine On Award

THE RULES:

  1. Show appreciation of the blogger who nominated you and link back to them in your post
  2. Add the award logo to your blog
  3. Share 7 things about yourself
  4.  Nominate 5 – 10 or so bloggers you admire
  5. Contact your chosen bloggers to let them know
  6. Optional questions (This one I will forego for now to make it easier on everyone!)

 Seven things about me that you will not find in my bio:

  1. I was raised on a ranch in Texas.
  2. I have 4 sisters.
  3. I love to cook and love feed people.
  4. I’m an aspiring photographer and am seeing myself with a better camera. 🙂
  5. I love growing, cooking and eating (and taking pictures of) food from our small garden, with my partner Dionne. (Then composting and putting it all back.)
  6. We have a genius wiener dog named Oliver.
  7. My first genius son, Quentin is a sophomore at the University of Texas.

I am pleased to nominate the following blogs:

  1. http://largeself.com/
  2. http://momsopinions.wordpress.com/
  3. http://apuginthekitchen.com/
  4. http://searchingforthehappiness.wordpress.com/
  5. http://mymeanderingtrail.com/

Don’t forget to stop by Ganesh’s blog:  http://ganeshraam.wordpress.com/

Thank you again, Ganesh!

Mind Control

Our minds can tell us some pretty scary stories. Most of which there is NO actual evidence of, mind you, just general or very specific scary thoughts, stories or ideas. (As a mother, I know I’m not alone in wanting to wash my brain after flashes of ridiculous thoughts about the safety of my child.) They could stem from the news, a friend, the radio or maybe just bubbled up all by itself from our little brain. At some point we have to recognize these negative thoughts flowing from our minds are…. #1 – not who we are, #2 – not helping and #3 – not true.

Our brains are machines, pre-programmed to focus on and ferret out what is wrong in every situation. It’s as if our minds are a self-defense mechanism for our species. It served us well thousands upon thousands of years ago, but not so much today. No big deal. Just decide to begin seeing things from a different, lighter perspective, there is always a bright side. Set your intention to recognize when your mind is trying to “sell” you something and don’t buy in. Sure there are things out there we don’t like, but our attention to them only gives them energy, makes them bigger and more powerful. What you focus on expands.

Once you begin to grasp what this means, your life will change rapidly and easily.

When I observe people around me upset about what they are seeing in their own reality (everyone’s is different!) and talking about it being so bad, I wonder… What do you think is happening with each word that comes out of our mouths, speaking to the contrary of what we want?  I’ll tell you what’s happening, more and more of what you don’t want is being generated and “shipped out” to you for your experience, like you just placed your order on Amazon.com. It’s even free shipping! Yep, step right up folks and talk all you want about what you don’t want, don’t like, think is wrong and feel so strongly about and MAKE NO MISTAKE the universe will put more and more of that on your delivery truck. We live in a Law of Attraction based universe, whether you know or understand it or not. It WILL show up in your world. Trust me, I know. I also know it’s all too easy and feels too good to bitch, moan and complain about how things are wrong, wrong, wrong and this world is going to hell in a handbag! (Oh, and get someone on that bandwagon with us, that always feels better. ha.) Guess what, I’ve done it before myself. But, none of that changes anything.

What does change everything is letting go.

Let go of your attachment to all of your thoughts and everything you think. Stop worshiping at the alter of your negative thoughts. They don’t control you. YOU control them. Make the decision right now to stop being so romanced by negativity. Notice what you feel in your body when you’re focusing negatively on something. Soothe yourself and let that feeling pass. Now, focus on something more pleasing. If you can focus on what you want and it feels good, great! Do that. Or focus on your beautiful view, or awesome pet, or fun family, or great partner or exciting up coming adventure. Focus on something that feels good and makes you laugh and feel happy.

What you want is on it’s way to you. The larger part of who you are, knows exactly what you want and wants you to have it. And furthermore is doing all it can within the confines of your attitude to bring it to you. All you need to do is quit focusing so much on what’s wrong and start looking around at what is great about your life. There is plenty. This vast and wondrous universe that created us all to have our own individual personalities and desires is more than capable of creating the outcome you want. And you having the outcome you want doesn’t have to come at the expense of someone else. There is enough for everyone.

Rather than trying to make the world look exactly like you want it to, what if you concerned yourself, mainly, with how you feel? What if we went for happy and healthy, rather than “I have to be with this specific person, in this specific town, doing this work, specifically.” What would be the big tragedy if you actually went for happy before the relationship, job, house, etc? You can be. Just decide that you want to be happy and begin moving in that direction. If you need help, get it. This is your life! Enjoy it to the fullest.

So the next time your mind serves up a big heaping helping of fear/doom/gloom, pass.

Put Me In Coach

Beautiful PK Sunset

We took a road trip this weekend to the lake (Possum Kingdom Lake, in Texas). The sunsets are always beautiful. It’s a nice 4 hour drive. Far enough to make you feel like you’ve gone somewhere, but not so far that it takes up your whole weekend getting there and back.  While driving, we talk, sing or sit in peaceful silence.  It feels so good to really unwind and relax after a full week.

The song Centerfield, by John Fogerty came on. Clap. Clap. ClapClapClap. Clap. Clap. ClapClap. I was immediately taken back to my childhood, riding in my Daddy’s pickup truck windows down coming home from school, singing this song and realizing it was about baseball.  I smiled at myself and sang along. “Put me in coach, I’m ready to play today. Look at me, I can be, centerfield.”

I then thought of my days of playing basketball in high school.  Taking a breather on the bench and then being ready to jump back into the game. Watching the action and seeing what the other team is doing and realizing what the next move could be. Leaning down the bench and saying to Coach Courtney, “Put me in Coach, I’m ready to play”.

I miss that. Playing basketball on a team. The flow of the game.  The hard sprints, juking and defending, falling down and getting back up, passing the ball or taking the ball to the basket when it’s right. It’s a game and we play it with our friends and teammates.  Some of them are our best friends, but some we may not fully appreciate. (there is always something to appreciate) But the point is we are a team and our objective is doing our very best and hopefully the outcome will result in a win. (but if it doesn’t, the fact that we all did our best is a win)

I love that about sports. It brings all kinds of people together. Money, political party, social status (hilarious) or race all unimportant, we’re on the same team. And we ARE on the same team. The human team. It’s a really fun game to play when you don’t take things so seriously.

No matter what you are faced with, it’s not that bad. Certainly not as bad as your mind (and the news) might be telling you it is. Death is a transition back into the bliss of the non-physical. (for everyone) So, nothing to fear there. Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional. When you can allow yourself to be with the pain for just a moment, it can go away. But our minds wrap us up in the story over why and how bad it is. This does nothing but perpetuate the situation. Bless our hearts.

Relax and breathe. Forget about the situation for a minute and let your self have a moment of peace. Feel what you feel and allow yourself to move through it. These feelings of upset and hurt don’t have to last forever. It’s only our mind that keeps bringing them back up and our inability to just sit and be with the feelings that doesn’t allow them to move on out. Like water off a ducks back… feel what you feel and move on. You can do it. Talking about or focusing on what you don’t want only creates more and more of that in your life.

If things don’t go the way you want, say, “Oh well, what’s my next move?” This is the game of life. Get up every morning, ready to play, ready to do your best at whatever you do. Ready to focus on what’s working and let go of what’s not. Great coaches don’t point out our shortcomings and then drone on about them, they point us in the direction we need to go. Guiding us toward what and where to focus to make our game better.

Let your awareness be that great coach. Let what you don’t want be an easy reminder that there’s something better to focus on. If you don’t want to be sick, focus on your health and all the ways you feel good and are healthy. Learn how to play the game. How many times have we heard that? Life is a game too, you know. You get to choose how you’re going to play in every moment. Are we going through Door #1 filled with fear and negativity, or will we choose Door #2 that is full of possibility, ease and potential. Your attitude and focus are everything.

Don’t let things that are out of your control ruin your here and now. Your life and how you feel everyday is what is truly important. We have full control over that with our focus and intention. Find the bright side and focus on it. A wise man once told me that life is 10% what God gives you and 90% what you make of it. (Thanks Daddy for starting me on the road to my enlightenment!) Attitude is everything.

What are you making of your life? Are you letting your own focus make you unhappy or letting situations outside of yourself determine how you feel? Are you listening to things that upset you and make you mad? Turn it off. Focus on what’s good in your life right now. No one has power over you. You are the creator of your own life through your focus and intention. Intend now to be happy. To allow energy to move freely, naturally. Intend to spend more time appreciating and less time criticizing. Soothe yourself in the quiet of your own mind. Tell the story of what you want and see what happens.

This can seem at first much easier said than done, but I am here to tell you that life is good and it only gets better. You can figure this out on your own, or you can get help if you need it. I’ve been there and am fully aware of all the tricks your mind (the devil) likes to play on you. I can soothe you and help you get a better perspective. There is always a better perspective. Recognize your own power in your life and embrace it. It may seem scary at first, but who better to determine your future than you. It can be whatever you want. It’s never too late and there is no such thing as a missed opportunity.

Get excited about life. You can be your own great coach, it just takes a little practice. Everyone starts somewhere and where you are is perfect. Abraham once said that behind every great athlete is a great coach that saw their potential before they were able to see it themselves.

And that person for you, is me.

I love you so much,

Crystal

Free At Last!

So much going on these days.  Energy is moving at an all time HIGH.  I feel things changing around me.  I wake most mornings feeling warm and fuzzy.  That is, unless it’s one of THOSE mornings.  Or my energy is moving faster than I am able to let it in.  Even those days are ok.  I recognize my resistance, acknowledge the movement, take a deep breath and thank heavens for my life and where I am in it.  I know that even in my pain, irritation, sadness or frustration, it is all energy and it’s all moving.

As I was trying to fall asleep the other night, my mind was running a mile a minute.  Most of it good and exciting, but I had a flash of a moment from my young adulthood I wasn’t particularly proud of or happy to remember.  At that moment, I began soothing myself.  Usually I’ll say “Stop It” or “Ok, thank you very much, next subject”, but this time it was different.

I first said I love you… bless your heart. I then started explaining to myself all the reasons everything is ok.  I told myself how I had found my way, and how things always worked out.  I told myself to look around at what had changed in my life and in the lives of the people around me.  I spoke sweetly, calmly and softly to myself.  Telling myself all the things I always wanted someone else to tell me.  Speaking the words of comfort that most comforted me.  Saying what I needed to hear, that only I know and understand.  My heart softened and utterly melted.  It felt so sweet and good.  I knew, I had found freedom.

It’s only our own minds that torture us.  So… YOU talk.  It’s crazy to me how we will stand idly by while our mind whips us and tortures us with past experiences, conversations or actions that are truly ancient history.  The only thing that keeps us attached to them is our mind.  A close friend of mine was struggling with her obsessive negative thoughts, I told her, “only one can talk at a time, so you do it, deliberately.”  Don’t just try to stop the negative thoughts, CULTIVATE the positive ones.  Just start talking to yourself, lovingly and soothingly until you don’t even remember what your mind was trying to scare you with!

If your monkey mind is giving you trouble, give this a try.  If you need to write out a script of sweet, loving, nurturing things to read in a tortured moment, do it.  Until you’re able to go with your Large Self and flow those loving words in the moment, have an alternate plan.

If you need help formulating an alternate plan, I’m happy to help.

Here’s to your Freedom!

So much Love to YOU,

Crystal

Get Sad, Make A Decision

I wrote an article a while back called Get Mad, Make A Decision.  I wrote about finally getting tired of not getting what I wanted and making the decision to do something about it. Finally getting mad enough to say, “OK. I’ve had it. Something is changing NOW.”

What changes now is all up to you. Stop doing that thing that you know you do. Stop letting someone else be your excuse for you not having what you want. Decide what you want and head in that direction. No matter what anyone else says or thinks, this is your life, live it.

Sometimes you have to get mad before you’ll make a decision like that, but sometimes, something happens in your life that doesn’t make you mad, it makes you sad. Things happen in our lives that we don’t understand and from the very sad and hurt place we stand, the greater plan of our lives can be difficult, if not impossible to see. This is when we have to just be sad, and make a decision.

A little over 1 year ago, my sweet wiener dog, Zupe made his transition. He was sick for about a month before we knew it was time to let him go. During that month, we did everything we knew to do energetically and physically to heal and “save” our little dog, but in the end, it was his time. When it finally happened, we were exhausted and devastated. We tried so hard. We did everything we could do. (Some folks won’t understand loving a dog so much, it’s ok.) People have had the same experience with loved ones that have suffered too long. (Or maybe you’ve just lost a relationship or have found yourself at the end of something beautiful.)

I realized as we let Zupe go, that through his passing he was offering us a beautiful gift. Freedom. We all have this opportunity when something this big happens in our lives.

Decide now that you’re going to allow every bit of old energy that no longer serves and uplifts you to move. Let yourself grieve. For the loss of your loved one, for the pain you have suffered, for the hurt of everyone involved. Stay out of your head as much as possible during this time and only feel. Let yourself feel the physical feelings (the sick feeling in your stomach or the intense ache in your heart) of pain, sadness and grief in your body and let them move. Laugh every time you feel like it and rejoice that your loved one is laughing with you. Spend as much time outside in nature as you can and take good care of yourself. Be so kind, compassionate and loving to yourself. Soothe yourself in the quiet of your own mind when you begin to feel upset. Be your own best friend and cheerleader.

Allow yourself the time to feel everything. Don’t try to rush it or think you should already be feeling better. Remember that this too shall pass. One day the memories of your loved one will bring such pleasure and joy, rather than the loss you feel so deeply now.

Love is eternal.  These physical bodies are only a very small part of our whole being… our spirit is always in the non-physical. Death is a misconception. It’s only transition and they are never far away.

As I held Zupe to my chest before his transition, I felt him melt into my heart. I knew instinctively he’d always be there. Never parted from me, but certainly, always a part of me.

Celebrate the joy and freedom our friends and loved ones feel once they’ve made their transition.  Feel the exhilaration they feel being free from the vehicle that finally wore out. Talk to your loved ones daily and listen for the answer in your heart. Remember, when you are thinking about them, they are with you. Don’t feel the separation, feel the love. They are with us, always.

Money, Honey

What do we want? MONEY!  When do we want it? NOW!

Money. It’s what we want!  We need it, right?   To survive, to live, to eat, to thrive…?? Well, yes and no.  While it is useful to exchange for goods and services, we can’t eat it (gag) and money certainly can’t hold us when we are feeling vulnerable or need a hug.

We think we want money, but what we really want is what we think money will provide. Stability, security, freedom… get the picture?

While cash money is a fantastic tool that allows us to have the stuff we want and do things we want to do it isn’t necessary for our survival. At one point in history salt and chocolate were forms of money. Taking the life and death importance out of money can make it a little less scary when we find we need more in the bank than we currently have.

First, just breathe. Everything is always working out for you. (If you think it isn’t, think again!)

What is your relationship with money?

Do you love money or hate it? Do you think people that have money are “bad” or “smarter than the rest of us”? When out with family or friends, do you think the person with most money should pay for everything? Do you feel confident you’ll always be able to create or generate all the money you need? Do you feel like you’ll never make enough? Are you envious, jealous or even angry with people that have a lot of money? Do you actually have a bit of money but are constantly afraid of losing it or that someone will take it from you? Have you decided you’ll probably just live paycheck to paycheck for the rest of your life?

Think about your answers to the previous questions.  What beliefs did you just realize you have about money? Do they support you and make you feel good, or do they feel bad and scary or worrisome?

The way you feel right now, physically, in your body,
is the key to the amount of money you are currently creating in your reality
.

It’s not the economy, the current or past administration. It’s not your boss or family. It is only about the physical sensation you’re feeling right now as you’re thinking about and focusing on money. Is it in your stomach, heart or throat, perhaps? (It could be in your ear, elbow, knee, ankle or big toe!)

Notice how your body feels when you talk about money.  Does anything tense up?  Do you feel that nervous feeling in your stomach or a clinch in your chest? Does your mind jump on the scary roller coaster of trying to figure out how you’re going to make everything work?

These little signs are telling you how you feel about money. The great news is that from now on, you’ll have a bit more awareness of how your thoughts affect your body. Yay!

Feeling those feelings (the physical sensations in your body)
without thinking about why you are feeling them (I’m broke and have bills to pay)
will set you free.

I understand completely how scary our current reality can seem, but that fear is tied directly to the feelings in your body. It’s like having an oscillating fan plugged in and turned on high, unplug it from the electrical outlet and it stops. Let yourself feel those feelings and they will flow on through your body as intended. Feeling the feeling removes the “charge”. Then the whole situation is transformed. The perfect solution presents itself, a check shows up in the mail.  A friend or relative gifts you with the money or you create the space for your own financial abundance. The number of positive solutions to your situation is limitless, don’t trap yourself in the 1 or 2 terrible scenarios you keep playing over and over in your head.

Speaking of terrible scenarios playing over and over in your head… Your mind is going to automatically point out what’s wrong with everything and how it could be even worse. That way of thinking was imperative to our survival as cavemen needing to protect ourselves from real and present danger, but we are no longer in danger. (No matter what the news says!) Bless our negatively focused minds and our news media. Fortunately we have the freewill and power to change our focus. It takes a little effort and consistency, but is well worth it. We create with the power of our minds and our laser like focus. Make sure you are focused on what you want, not what’s gone wrong.

We have these feelings for a very good reason, after all. They are our guidance system. Everyone receives guidance from the Divine/God/Universal Intelligence, but not everyone knows how to hear it. Feelings are the key to this communication. Feelings that feel bad are telling you that the thoughts you are thinking are not in alignment with your larger, more expanded self. This doesn’t mean anything is bad or wrong, it just shows you that you are not seeing the situation as your Divine Self sees it.

After years of not allowing ourselves to fully feel, experience and let flow our feelings and emotions (because they can be painful), we’re like storage units full of old and useless crap we don’t need anymore, but still pay for.  Month after month, paying for stuff we don’t need or use. Except you’re not paying with money in this way, you’re paying with your energy, your health and your life experience.

Let yourself feel how you feel. Whether you need more money, a better job or a new relationship. Don’t resist anything. Just acknowledge your feelings and let them move.

Set your intention to get fully into your body so that you can, first, hear the information being given to you. And secondly, to begin navigating your life in a way that is easy, pleasing and fun. Life isn’t nearly as hard or scary as we’ve been lead to believe. Bless our hearts.  We know what we know and do the best we can.  When we know better we can do better.

No big changes to make, just an awareness to cultivate.

Feel what you feel. Recognize when you’re mind is taking you down a rocky road and choose a smoother path.

The evidence that shows up in your life will astound you.

Here’s to letting it be easy!  I can help.
Much Love,
Crystal

Stare At The Carrot

Don’t you just love it when you get a glimpse of the macrocosm in the microcosm? It is like watching the evolution of our species in the entire process between the first division of our single cell to the complete humans we become. Seeing the really big picture in a very small way or as ordinary part of everyday life.

Last night while fixing dinner, as usual, Oliver (pictured left) gets bites of the veggie being chopped, on this occasion, carrots. He knows it’s coming and waits patiently (or not) to receive them. Dionne tossed the carrots one by one, Oliver dutifully went after.

He missed one.

I stood looking at the carrot from my vantage point and seeing Oliver waiting expectantly in the kitchen, I told him the carrot was over there. (Looking at Oliver…) “Oliver, look over there. The carrot is over there.” (Pointing) Clap. Clap. Snap. “Hey! Oliver! Dude. Look over there!” Lord. This dog. (Actually, he’s a genius, but he does have his moments. I guess we all do. wink)

I looked over at the carrot laying on the rug. I heard, “Stare at the carrot”. It then occurred to me… Alecia Evans, my animal communicator friend says to communicate with your dogs/animals through visualization.  Duh. They get pictures from us. Yes, dogs can understand some words, but mainly they are taking the mental images we are projecting. In my head again, “STARE at the carrot.” OK!

So I thought, “Oliver the carrot is over there!” and I stared at the carrot. Not thinking anything, I just stared at the carrot.  After about 15 seconds Oliver jumped like someone had goosed him and went hot-steppin’ it into the living room. He sniffed around a couple of times and headed straight for the carrot.  Well, well, well.  Again, Duh.

Oliver Stares At Carrot

Keep staring at that carrot!

STARE at the carrot.

Before, I was looking at Oliver and telling him over and over again what I wanted him to know.  But what really worked was me staring directly at what I wanted him to see.  WOW!  Now that’s what I’m talking about people! Yes!  Practical applications in several areas.  I love when that happens. The universe brings us what we focus on. Period. No amount of calling, clapping, snapping and arm flailing makes what we want happen any faster than our pure focus and attention.

I know. I know. It’s not always easy to stare at the carrot. I hear ya. I really do. I’ve been feeling and moving through some big energy myself, and it ain’t all sunshine and roses. But, hear me now and believe me later. It’s all good! Energy is moving. You’ve got to let it move. You really can feel what you’re feeling and still keep your eye on that carrot. (If you can’t on your own, get sessions for help with your particular flavor of resistance!)

Let yourself have the time to really feel what you need to feel. (NOW! Recognize your mind is going to take you on a trip… yeah, yeah, yeah.  Been there, done that. I know what you’re doing. Thank you very much and let it go. The sooner you get bored with that busy mind the better. Then it can serve you rather than yank you around.) Spend some time getting into your body and finding where those feelings reside. Appreciate all of your lower emotions for letting you know you had this vibration going on and there is more power for you to reclaim. Yes! Thank you!

Don’t try to rush out of it. You are where you are and you feel what you feel. You are in the perfect place. Be OK with how you feel. Take the drama out of it. Let yourself really fully embrace that feeling, knowing that the slower and more deliberately you do this the faster it moves. When we try to skim the feeling or judge it, it only lasts longer or comes back later more powerfully. It will keep coming back until you appreciate it and allow it to flow freely on.

Find out what your carrot is (joy, health, vitality, expansion) and keep your eye on it.  If your mind is the problem, recognize it. The sooner you hear it, the sooner you can unhook from it.  Lightly set your intention to release all attachment to it’s endless chatter. If you need help, get it!  This is your life and it is meant to be enjoyed!

Here’s to our soft, easy and laser like focus on everything we want and the beauty in all of it.

Keep staring at that carrot!

Sending Love, Ease and Flow,
Crystal

Thanks Crystal

Thanks for that post Crystal.

I’m going to read it slower later and really digest it!

Here’s a carrot for you:

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🙂

Love,

Terry x

Staring at the carrot

Thanks, Crystal, this is a great story and I love thinking of “stare at the carrot” to remind me to get focused. You mentioned “bored with the busy mind” too, and I hadn’t really realized that a lot of my thinking actually is quite boring. Recently I have been noticing it more, and choosing to ignore it in favor of feeling yummy. Lots of love and blessings, Grace

Love this!

Just found this, Crystal — and I love the simplicity and clarity of your message. It’s all just so easy (even though we want to complicate it beyond measure), and you convey that in such an effortless, fun way. Yay!!

Wonderful!

Thank you, Crystal, for that reminder to keep staring at our carrots! Much Love and appreciation! Siana

Ah, this new carrot!

Your blog, dear Crystal, came right in good time because I’ve been staring at a new carrot and I must get it! Thank you for your powerful insight!!! Hugs + love, love, love.

Homecoming / Coming Home

I’ve had some full circle moments lately.  I recently went home for my high school homecoming. It has been 21 years since I graduated from Jayton High School.  And for the first time since I was  a very young child, I wanted to go home.  I needed the comfort of my family.  I needed to know that the recent energy I was feeling (previously tied up with them) was indeed old and no longer existed in my life.

Beside feeling the comfort and ease of family and being in my child hood home, I was reminded of how big my home truly is.  I was raised and my family still lives on JD Patterson Ranch, between 2 small towns in Texas.  Returning for homecoming in a town of 513 people is pretty wild, the love and support is amazing.  Political differences, religious differences… no matter.  We all hugged and smiled and squeezed each other laughing.  We kids grew up together, and the elders watched me grow up and I love them, all of them. Then and now.

The other town over, Aspermont is where my mom and grand parents were raised and lived most of their lives.  Anytime we go back, we eat at Hickman’s, the cafe of my childhood.  (chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes, gravy, green beans, yeast rolls or garlic toast, old school salad bar… getting the picture!?? YUM.) As soon as I arrive in town, everyone recognizes me (because I look like my mother and my grandmother) and asks how they are.  Again, politics, religion, any difference at all… never mentioned.

It occurred to me on this trip how important having this community of familiar love and support has been in my life. I have 2 counties worth of folks that think I am pretty darn great and are always glad to see me and hug my neck. I see very clearly how people need it. I am well aware of the stability this network has provided me. Love and Support. I rarely see any of them (maybe once a year?) but they know me and love me and are there, with a smile on their faces whenever they think about me. And vice versa.

When I came home after the weekend.  I was again met with beautiful community.

I am recently rebuilding parts of my life. It feels so good to start fresh. Even if it’s a little scary at first, things always come around.  The unfamiliar can be most unsettling at times. But when I emailed my friends and family (some of which I’ve never seen in person, only spoken to on the phone or through email!) my new contact information and to tell them about this blog, my feeling of being home was even more palpable.  The love and support I have received has been overwhelming and I am more than thrilled at what life has in store for me.

Zupe

Alive and well in the NP. (non-physical!)

My sweet dog Zupe passed away 1 year ago on Oct 8th. He is ultimately what opened me up to the true nature of our lives and the beauty and wonder around us every day.  The energy I allowed to move with his passing flowered my full enlightenment.  The year that followed has been profound.  Vibrations that lay dormant in me (that no longer match my new reality) have come up and been felt.  Over and over again.  Situations I couldn’t believe.  Energy long since forgotten, back again for my feeling.  It didn’t always feel great, of course.  Because that is the way life is, and it’s ok.  I recognized at every turn myself moving old energy. Allowing the discomfort to wash over me and breathing through it.  Nothing to worry about. I’m not going to drown. I stand on solid ground. We all do.

So come home yourself.  To the knowing that all is truly well.

My life is exactly what I make of it.  No one creates in my life and reality. (Thank God!)

It’s just little ole me here.

Being excited about allowing more and more ease in my life and looking forward to sharing it all.

Much Love to you,
Crystal

Set Backs

Crystal Nuding

I recently experienced what some would consider a set back.  While it didn’t feel good, (sucked actually) I truly knew I (and everything) was ok.

I look at life a bit differently than most folks.

I do not believe that life just happens to us.  There is no one and nothing outside of ourselves pronouncing us good or bad, right or wrong.

We’ve been trained by society, family and religion to fear life; that someone out there is trying to hurt or take advantage of us. While we do have free will to look at life that way, it’s a pretty unhealthy (not to mention unhappy!) way to live.

There is a much larger part of ourselves, that you may or may not be aware of, (but is there none the less!) that is always happy and sees the positive in every outcome. When we begin to see life from the perspective that all is well, life gets much better.

Shit happens.

Life Happens.

And I always see the bright side.

This is my new blog site.

Stick around and see what happens next!

Much Love,

Crystal