Confessions of a Conscious Creator

Everybody has problems. Every single person in this world has problems. So I thought I’d share some of my struggles with you.

Oh, hey hey, you say. I thought you were a Conscious Creator? It’s SIMPLE, you say! Create your own reality, you say!

How can someone have struggles if they’re so good at creating their own reality?

Welcome To Humanity!

Being a conscious creator doesn’t mean that you’ll never have another struggle ever again.

It does mean, however, that any struggle you face, you’ll see as a catalyst for your own growth. You won’t be totally upset by anything and it will give you a higher level of conscious awareness as to which direction you should go next to move yourself closer to what you want.

Some folks may think I don’t have any troubles, because I don’t talk about them. I really only complain about petty and non-meaningful things, quickly, and often, in jest.

In all honesty, we’re human, we’ve all got “problems”.

But, if I am really, REALLY upset or worried about something, NO ONE will EVER know.

It’s one of my tricks as a Conscious Creator to move as quickly as I can through difficulties, without including a bunch of folks in a storyline I’d rather not play out.

I’m not saying to not talk things through. What I am saying is be careful who you take into your confidence. Only share with folks that will allow you to move quickly through the hard parts to come to the best decision you can for yourself and your family.

I Confess

I say Bless my heart all the time. There are any number of scenarios that can play out during a day that might frustrate or irritate me. My answer to that is “Bless my heart!”. All day every day. This is what life is about. Moving quickly through the difficult bits. Acknowledging the minutiae and being kind to yourself makes it much easier to get through.

I promise to do better 20 times a day. Though I want to do my best every time, sometimes, I fall short. But, I don’t give myself a hard time. I breathe through, shake it off and tell myself, “I’ll do better next time” and often times do. 🙂

I have aches and pains that I have to stop my mind from making into a thing. My mind can be every bit as unruly as the next person. I just don’t give it any leeway. I understand we are vibrational beings living in a vibrational universe and I tell myself as much when my mind tries to convince me it “could” be something else.

I feel frustrated, irritated and overwhelmed sometimes. My life isn’t perfect. I don’t have everything I want. Many things can seem difficult for me. So, I don’t try to think about, worry over or fix any of them. I tell myself it’s all Energy and it’s all moving and it always eventually does. I don’t rush myself or make it a big deal when it takes longer than I’d like.

I often wish I could use my hands to change things, which is supremely frustrating because I know the most powerful and easiest way to make real and lasting change is by moving the energy. But, that doesn’t preclude me from thinking “I’ve got to DO something!” on a fairly regular basis.

I feel uncomfortable when moving through the energy of… not wanting something because it’s someone else’s idea, even though it may be a good idea. Oh my gosh. This is so childish. Yet, here I find myself sometimes.

I’m sure I could come up with plenty more, but we’ll leave it here for now.

This Is All Human Nature

Move through the energy of all negative upset by allowing yourself to feel what the emotion feels like physically in your body, without telling yourself a bunch of unhelpful stories about what those feelings mean and EVERYTHING changes. Whew. Yes, please and thank you!

I’m working on a Free Course to introduce these ideas and concepts on my newsletter if you’d like to jump in and be part of helping me create that.

I need your feedback. I want your feedback. I’m here to help and I want to know what you need.

Be so easy about things. Don’t make them a big deal. Relax more about it and let unsettled feelings pass before you take any action.

Any amount of effort you give to this endeavor will yield results. And small wins gather much momentum when you focus on them.

Here’s to it!
Much Love,
Crystal

Prayers for Humanity

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. I’ve been PRAYING a lot lately.

I hold the vision that each of us, in our own way, to our own higher power, are calling out for Peace and Love in the hearts of ALL during this most difficult time in our Nation’s history.

The way I pray now is much different than how I prayed when I was younger and had less understanding of the world, how it works and what God actually wants from me.

As a child my prayers always started like this…

Now I lay me, down to sleep
I pray the Lord, my soul to keep.
If I should die, before I wake.
I pray the Lord, my soul to take. 

Early Updates

I knew instinctively, at a very tender age that I couldn’t ask God for things that I didn’t also ask for other people. So, I added an addendum to my prayer…

Dear Lord,

Please forgive me of all my sins,
and forgive everyone else in the world of all their sins.

Please help me make it through the night,
and please help everyone else in the world make it through the night. 

I remember knowing, even as a small child, that not everyone was going to make it through the night. That when morning came, some people in the world would have passed away and some family would be sad about it. But, I prayed that prayer all the same. The reality of life would not stop me from asking for what I knew to be true and right and good.

I still say that prayer every night when I go to sleep. Same dang way. It always cracks me up and I am infinitely proud of my little small self for KNOWING that I want EVERYONE’S highest good. Whether I know or like them or agree with them or not.

It also has occurred to me that I’ve been praying for years for God to help us through this dark night. Whatever it is, for whomever. This dark night… we will make it through.

Current Happenings

I pray or meditate multiple times per day. When I’m irritated, upset, don’t know what to do, etc… I ask for clarity, guidance and support. I sit down and get still. I ask my higher power to be with me and help me make the best decision. This is also when I find the physical sensations of the emotional upset in my body and let it move. It’s a game changer. Everything is always working out.

I’ve added more addendums to my prayers …

Hey man! Walk with me, talk with me. (loving, friendly, familiar)
I want to see what you see.
I want to hear what you hear.
I want to say what you would have me say.
Be in my heart today, God.
Make me an instrument,
Of your Peace.
Of your Joy.
Of your Love.
All in your good time, God, not my time. 
YOUR will, not mine. 
I am open and available, thy will be done.
In Jesus name, I pray.
SO BE IT AND SO IT IS.

Whatever Works For You

You do you. Find your faith and pray joyful prayers of thanks for the good things you want for yourself and the entire world. Lay in the grass and breathe in Nature, and all the good there is in this world. Take a walk and wave to your neighbors, no matter what sign they have in their yard. Intend to see the world through God’s clear and loving eyes.

Say NO thank you, and turn off any news channel or personality that tries to divide you from ANYONE in your community. We need each other. Life is a team sport. We didn’t come here to agree on everything or to succeed alone. We came here to learn what we can and share it with others.

What I’ve learned and am trying to share is…

LOVE IS
and everything else, isn’t.
God IS LOVE
.

This is all you need to really understand, to let go of the negativity and divisiveness.
That mindset and narrative is a mistake, intended confusion. It’s not real.

What’s real is love, connection and community. If the folks you are watching aren’t emulating this you’re watching the wrong stuff.

If YOU are someone that IS projecting something OTHER than LOVE, connection and community, I’d get radically honest and ask myself why.

When people act ugly or say ugly things, it says EVERYTHING about their own state of mind, and nothing about any person or subject they are disparaging.

Energy is running pretty high these days, folks.

Keep breathing and keep looking for ways to calm and soothe the situation.

I’m here to help.
I love you so much!!
Crystal