Free At Last!

So much going on these days.  Energy is moving at an all time HIGH.  I feel things changing around me.  I wake most mornings feeling warm and fuzzy.  That is, unless it’s one of THOSE mornings.  Or my energy is moving faster than I am able to let it in.  Even those days are ok.  I recognize my resistance, acknowledge the movement, take a deep breath and thank heavens for my life and where I am in it.  I know that even in my pain, irritation, sadness or frustration, it is all energy and it’s all moving.

As I was trying to fall asleep the other night, my mind was running a mile a minute.  Most of it good and exciting, but I had a flash of a moment from my young adulthood I wasn’t particularly proud of or happy to remember.  At that moment, I began soothing myself.  Usually I’ll say “Stop It” or “Ok, thank you very much, next subject”, but this time it was different.

I first said I love you… bless your heart. I then started explaining to myself all the reasons everything is ok.  I told myself how I had found my way, and how things always worked out.  I told myself to look around at what had changed in my life and in the lives of the people around me.  I spoke sweetly, calmly and softly to myself.  Telling myself all the things I always wanted someone else to tell me.  Speaking the words of comfort that most comforted me.  Saying what I needed to hear, that only I know and understand.  My heart softened and utterly melted.  It felt so sweet and good.  I knew, I had found freedom.

It’s only our own minds that torture us.  So… YOU talk.  It’s crazy to me how we will stand idly by while our mind whips us and tortures us with past experiences, conversations or actions that are truly ancient history.  The only thing that keeps us attached to them is our mind.  A close friend of mine was struggling with her obsessive negative thoughts, I told her, “only one can talk at a time, so you do it, deliberately.”  Don’t just try to stop the negative thoughts, CULTIVATE the positive ones.  Just start talking to yourself, lovingly and soothingly until you don’t even remember what your mind was trying to scare you with!

If your monkey mind is giving you trouble, give this a try.  If you need to write out a script of sweet, loving, nurturing things to read in a tortured moment, do it.  Until you’re able to go with your Large Self and flow those loving words in the moment, have an alternate plan.

If you need help formulating an alternate plan, I’m happy to help.

Here’s to your Freedom!

So much Love to YOU,

Crystal

Get Sad, Make A Decision

I wrote an article a while back called Get Mad, Make A Decision.  I wrote about finally getting tired of not getting what I wanted and making the decision to do something about it. Finally getting mad enough to say, “OK. I’ve had it. Something is changing NOW.”

What changes now is all up to you. Stop doing that thing that you know you do. Stop letting someone else be your excuse for you not having what you want. Decide what you want and head in that direction. No matter what anyone else says or thinks, this is your life, live it.

Sometimes you have to get mad before you’ll make a decision like that, but sometimes, something happens in your life that doesn’t make you mad, it makes you sad. Things happen in our lives that we don’t understand and from the very sad and hurt place we stand, the greater plan of our lives can be difficult, if not impossible to see. This is when we have to just be sad, and make a decision.

A little over 1 year ago, my sweet wiener dog, Zupe made his transition. He was sick for about a month before we knew it was time to let him go. During that month, we did everything we knew to do energetically and physically to heal and “save” our little dog, but in the end, it was his time. When it finally happened, we were exhausted and devastated. We tried so hard. We did everything we could do. (Some folks won’t understand loving a dog so much, it’s ok.) People have had the same experience with loved ones that have suffered too long. (Or maybe you’ve just lost a relationship or have found yourself at the end of something beautiful.)

I realized as we let Zupe go, that through his passing he was offering us a beautiful gift. Freedom. We all have this opportunity when something this big happens in our lives.

Decide now that you’re going to allow every bit of old energy that no longer serves and uplifts you to move. Let yourself grieve. For the loss of your loved one, for the pain you have suffered, for the hurt of everyone involved. Stay out of your head as much as possible during this time and only feel. Let yourself feel the physical feelings (the sick feeling in your stomach or the intense ache in your heart) of pain, sadness and grief in your body and let them move. Laugh every time you feel like it and rejoice that your loved one is laughing with you. Spend as much time outside in nature as you can and take good care of yourself. Be so kind, compassionate and loving to yourself. Soothe yourself in the quiet of your own mind when you begin to feel upset. Be your own best friend and cheerleader.

Allow yourself the time to feel everything. Don’t try to rush it or think you should already be feeling better. Remember that this too shall pass. One day the memories of your loved one will bring such pleasure and joy, rather than the loss you feel so deeply now.

Love is eternal.  These physical bodies are only a very small part of our whole being… our spirit is always in the non-physical. Death is a misconception. It’s only transition and they are never far away.

As I held Zupe to my chest before his transition, I felt him melt into my heart. I knew instinctively he’d always be there. Never parted from me, but certainly, always a part of me.

Celebrate the joy and freedom our friends and loved ones feel once they’ve made their transition.  Feel the exhilaration they feel being free from the vehicle that finally wore out. Talk to your loved ones daily and listen for the answer in your heart. Remember, when you are thinking about them, they are with you. Don’t feel the separation, feel the love. They are with us, always.

Money, Honey

What do we want? MONEY!  When do we want it? NOW!

Money. It’s what we want!  We need it, right?   To survive, to live, to eat, to thrive…?? Well, yes and no.  While it is useful to exchange for goods and services, we can’t eat it (gag) and money certainly can’t hold us when we are feeling vulnerable or need a hug.

We think we want money, but what we really want is what we think money will provide. Stability, security, freedom… get the picture?

While cash money is a fantastic tool that allows us to have the stuff we want and do things we want to do it isn’t necessary for our survival. At one point in history salt and chocolate were forms of money. Taking the life and death importance out of money can make it a little less scary when we find we need more in the bank than we currently have.

First, just breathe. Everything is always working out for you. (If you think it isn’t, think again!)

What is your relationship with money?

Do you love money or hate it? Do you think people that have money are “bad” or “smarter than the rest of us”? When out with family or friends, do you think the person with most money should pay for everything? Do you feel confident you’ll always be able to create or generate all the money you need? Do you feel like you’ll never make enough? Are you envious, jealous or even angry with people that have a lot of money? Do you actually have a bit of money but are constantly afraid of losing it or that someone will take it from you? Have you decided you’ll probably just live paycheck to paycheck for the rest of your life?

Think about your answers to the previous questions.  What beliefs did you just realize you have about money? Do they support you and make you feel good, or do they feel bad and scary or worrisome?

The way you feel right now, physically, in your body,
is the key to the amount of money you are currently creating in your reality
.

It’s not the economy, the current or past administration. It’s not your boss or family. It is only about the physical sensation you’re feeling right now as you’re thinking about and focusing on money. Is it in your stomach, heart or throat, perhaps? (It could be in your ear, elbow, knee, ankle or big toe!)

Notice how your body feels when you talk about money.  Does anything tense up?  Do you feel that nervous feeling in your stomach or a clinch in your chest? Does your mind jump on the scary roller coaster of trying to figure out how you’re going to make everything work?

These little signs are telling you how you feel about money. The great news is that from now on, you’ll have a bit more awareness of how your thoughts affect your body. Yay!

Feeling those feelings (the physical sensations in your body)
without thinking about why you are feeling them (I’m broke and have bills to pay)
will set you free.

I understand completely how scary our current reality can seem, but that fear is tied directly to the feelings in your body. It’s like having an oscillating fan plugged in and turned on high, unplug it from the electrical outlet and it stops. Let yourself feel those feelings and they will flow on through your body as intended. Feeling the feeling removes the “charge”. Then the whole situation is transformed. The perfect solution presents itself, a check shows up in the mail.  A friend or relative gifts you with the money or you create the space for your own financial abundance. The number of positive solutions to your situation is limitless, don’t trap yourself in the 1 or 2 terrible scenarios you keep playing over and over in your head.

Speaking of terrible scenarios playing over and over in your head… Your mind is going to automatically point out what’s wrong with everything and how it could be even worse. That way of thinking was imperative to our survival as cavemen needing to protect ourselves from real and present danger, but we are no longer in danger. (No matter what the news says!) Bless our negatively focused minds and our news media. Fortunately we have the freewill and power to change our focus. It takes a little effort and consistency, but is well worth it. We create with the power of our minds and our laser like focus. Make sure you are focused on what you want, not what’s gone wrong.

We have these feelings for a very good reason, after all. They are our guidance system. Everyone receives guidance from the Divine/God/Universal Intelligence, but not everyone knows how to hear it. Feelings are the key to this communication. Feelings that feel bad are telling you that the thoughts you are thinking are not in alignment with your larger, more expanded self. This doesn’t mean anything is bad or wrong, it just shows you that you are not seeing the situation as your Divine Self sees it.

After years of not allowing ourselves to fully feel, experience and let flow our feelings and emotions (because they can be painful), we’re like storage units full of old and useless crap we don’t need anymore, but still pay for.  Month after month, paying for stuff we don’t need or use. Except you’re not paying with money in this way, you’re paying with your energy, your health and your life experience.

Let yourself feel how you feel. Whether you need more money, a better job or a new relationship. Don’t resist anything. Just acknowledge your feelings and let them move.

Set your intention to get fully into your body so that you can, first, hear the information being given to you. And secondly, to begin navigating your life in a way that is easy, pleasing and fun. Life isn’t nearly as hard or scary as we’ve been lead to believe. Bless our hearts.  We know what we know and do the best we can.  When we know better we can do better.

No big changes to make, just an awareness to cultivate.

Feel what you feel. Recognize when you’re mind is taking you down a rocky road and choose a smoother path.

The evidence that shows up in your life will astound you.

Here’s to letting it be easy!  I can help.
Much Love,
Crystal

Stare At The Carrot

Don’t you just love it when you get a glimpse of the macrocosm in the microcosm? It is like watching the evolution of our species in the entire process between the first division of our single cell to the complete humans we become. Seeing the really big picture in a very small way or as ordinary part of everyday life.

Last night while fixing dinner, as usual, Oliver (pictured left) gets bites of the veggie being chopped, on this occasion, carrots. He knows it’s coming and waits patiently (or not) to receive them. Dionne tossed the carrots one by one, Oliver dutifully went after.

He missed one.

I stood looking at the carrot from my vantage point and seeing Oliver waiting expectantly in the kitchen, I told him the carrot was over there. (Looking at Oliver…) “Oliver, look over there. The carrot is over there.” (Pointing) Clap. Clap. Snap. “Hey! Oliver! Dude. Look over there!” Lord. This dog. (Actually, he’s a genius, but he does have his moments. I guess we all do. wink)

I looked over at the carrot laying on the rug. I heard, “Stare at the carrot”. It then occurred to me… Alecia Evans, my animal communicator friend says to communicate with your dogs/animals through visualization.  Duh. They get pictures from us. Yes, dogs can understand some words, but mainly they are taking the mental images we are projecting. In my head again, “STARE at the carrot.” OK!

So I thought, “Oliver the carrot is over there!” and I stared at the carrot. Not thinking anything, I just stared at the carrot.  After about 15 seconds Oliver jumped like someone had goosed him and went hot-steppin’ it into the living room. He sniffed around a couple of times and headed straight for the carrot.  Well, well, well.  Again, Duh.

Oliver Stares At Carrot

Keep staring at that carrot!

STARE at the carrot.

Before, I was looking at Oliver and telling him over and over again what I wanted him to know.  But what really worked was me staring directly at what I wanted him to see.  WOW!  Now that’s what I’m talking about people! Yes!  Practical applications in several areas.  I love when that happens. The universe brings us what we focus on. Period. No amount of calling, clapping, snapping and arm flailing makes what we want happen any faster than our pure focus and attention.

I know. I know. It’s not always easy to stare at the carrot. I hear ya. I really do. I’ve been feeling and moving through some big energy myself, and it ain’t all sunshine and roses. But, hear me now and believe me later. It’s all good! Energy is moving. You’ve got to let it move. You really can feel what you’re feeling and still keep your eye on that carrot. (If you can’t on your own, get sessions for help with your particular flavor of resistance!)

Let yourself have the time to really feel what you need to feel. (NOW! Recognize your mind is going to take you on a trip… yeah, yeah, yeah.  Been there, done that. I know what you’re doing. Thank you very much and let it go. The sooner you get bored with that busy mind the better. Then it can serve you rather than yank you around.) Spend some time getting into your body and finding where those feelings reside. Appreciate all of your lower emotions for letting you know you had this vibration going on and there is more power for you to reclaim. Yes! Thank you!

Don’t try to rush out of it. You are where you are and you feel what you feel. You are in the perfect place. Be OK with how you feel. Take the drama out of it. Let yourself really fully embrace that feeling, knowing that the slower and more deliberately you do this the faster it moves. When we try to skim the feeling or judge it, it only lasts longer or comes back later more powerfully. It will keep coming back until you appreciate it and allow it to flow freely on.

Find out what your carrot is (joy, health, vitality, expansion) and keep your eye on it.  If your mind is the problem, recognize it. The sooner you hear it, the sooner you can unhook from it.  Lightly set your intention to release all attachment to it’s endless chatter. If you need help, get it!  This is your life and it is meant to be enjoyed!

Here’s to our soft, easy and laser like focus on everything we want and the beauty in all of it.

Keep staring at that carrot!

Sending Love, Ease and Flow,
Crystal

Thanks Crystal

Thanks for that post Crystal.

I’m going to read it slower later and really digest it!

Here’s a carrot for you:

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🙂

Love,

Terry x

Staring at the carrot

Thanks, Crystal, this is a great story and I love thinking of “stare at the carrot” to remind me to get focused. You mentioned “bored with the busy mind” too, and I hadn’t really realized that a lot of my thinking actually is quite boring. Recently I have been noticing it more, and choosing to ignore it in favor of feeling yummy. Lots of love and blessings, Grace

Love this!

Just found this, Crystal — and I love the simplicity and clarity of your message. It’s all just so easy (even though we want to complicate it beyond measure), and you convey that in such an effortless, fun way. Yay!!

Wonderful!

Thank you, Crystal, for that reminder to keep staring at our carrots! Much Love and appreciation! Siana

Ah, this new carrot!

Your blog, dear Crystal, came right in good time because I’ve been staring at a new carrot and I must get it! Thank you for your powerful insight!!! Hugs + love, love, love.

Homecoming / Coming Home

I’ve had some full circle moments lately.  I recently went home for my high school homecoming. It has been 21 years since I graduated from Jayton High School.  And for the first time since I was  a very young child, I wanted to go home.  I needed the comfort of my family.  I needed to know that the recent energy I was feeling (previously tied up with them) was indeed old and no longer existed in my life.

Beside feeling the comfort and ease of family and being in my child hood home, I was reminded of how big my home truly is.  I was raised and my family still lives on JD Patterson Ranch, between 2 small towns in Texas.  Returning for homecoming in a town of 513 people is pretty wild, the love and support is amazing.  Political differences, religious differences… no matter.  We all hugged and smiled and squeezed each other laughing.  We kids grew up together, and the elders watched me grow up and I love them, all of them. Then and now.

The other town over, Aspermont is where my mom and grand parents were raised and lived most of their lives.  Anytime we go back, we eat at Hickman’s, the cafe of my childhood.  (chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes, gravy, green beans, yeast rolls or garlic toast, old school salad bar… getting the picture!?? YUM.) As soon as I arrive in town, everyone recognizes me (because I look like my mother and my grandmother) and asks how they are.  Again, politics, religion, any difference at all… never mentioned.

It occurred to me on this trip how important having this community of familiar love and support has been in my life. I have 2 counties worth of folks that think I am pretty darn great and are always glad to see me and hug my neck. I see very clearly how people need it. I am well aware of the stability this network has provided me. Love and Support. I rarely see any of them (maybe once a year?) but they know me and love me and are there, with a smile on their faces whenever they think about me. And vice versa.

When I came home after the weekend.  I was again met with beautiful community.

I am recently rebuilding parts of my life. It feels so good to start fresh. Even if it’s a little scary at first, things always come around.  The unfamiliar can be most unsettling at times. But when I emailed my friends and family (some of which I’ve never seen in person, only spoken to on the phone or through email!) my new contact information and to tell them about this blog, my feeling of being home was even more palpable.  The love and support I have received has been overwhelming and I am more than thrilled at what life has in store for me.

Zupe

Alive and well in the NP. (non-physical!)

My sweet dog Zupe passed away 1 year ago on Oct 8th. He is ultimately what opened me up to the true nature of our lives and the beauty and wonder around us every day.  The energy I allowed to move with his passing flowered my full enlightenment.  The year that followed has been profound.  Vibrations that lay dormant in me (that no longer match my new reality) have come up and been felt.  Over and over again.  Situations I couldn’t believe.  Energy long since forgotten, back again for my feeling.  It didn’t always feel great, of course.  Because that is the way life is, and it’s ok.  I recognized at every turn myself moving old energy. Allowing the discomfort to wash over me and breathing through it.  Nothing to worry about. I’m not going to drown. I stand on solid ground. We all do.

So come home yourself.  To the knowing that all is truly well.

My life is exactly what I make of it.  No one creates in my life and reality. (Thank God!)

It’s just little ole me here.

Being excited about allowing more and more ease in my life and looking forward to sharing it all.

Much Love to you,
Crystal

Set Backs

Crystal Nuding

I recently experienced what some would consider a set back.  While it didn’t feel good, (sucked actually) I truly knew I (and everything) was ok.

I look at life a bit differently than most folks.

I do not believe that life just happens to us.  There is no one and nothing outside of ourselves pronouncing us good or bad, right or wrong.

We’ve been trained by society, family and religion to fear life; that someone out there is trying to hurt or take advantage of us. While we do have free will to look at life that way, it’s a pretty unhealthy (not to mention unhappy!) way to live.

There is a much larger part of ourselves, that you may or may not be aware of, (but is there none the less!) that is always happy and sees the positive in every outcome. When we begin to see life from the perspective that all is well, life gets much better.

Shit happens.

Life Happens.

And I always see the bright side.

This is my new blog site.

Stick around and see what happens next!

Much Love,

Crystal

Just Wake Up!

I can move myself around in my dreams.  When in dream, if I find myself in a situation I don’t like or think will be too difficult to get out of, I just wake up. I don’t always remember my dreams, but the ones I do, I’m usually aware I’m dreaming.

I’ll move about through the dream
and direct myself in one way or another.  I once dreamt I was on a narrow one way, one lane road, as if there were road construction all around. I drove for miles and miles with not enough room to turn around, and then came upon a complete block in the road.  At first glance, backing up the entire way was my only way out.  Screw that! I thought, wake up!  Ahhh sweet relief. Laying there in my bed I giggled at myself for creating such a situation, relaxed and fell back to sleep. Thank goodness I was dreaming.

Last night I dreamt I was walking through some place that although wasn’t a prison, it FELT like one.  All of the sudden I was in a stark room with concrete floors and no apparent doors. There was some evidence of water on the floor and one lone, plain desk stood against a wall. I realized I needed to get out but couldn’t see the obvious way.  As I began to get anxious about it, I felt the walls getting closer. Wake up! It took about one more breath for me to say, “yeah, I’m outta here. Wake up.” As I smiled and went back to sleep I thought, prison, interesting.

This morning as I recapitulated my dream, first in my own head and later to Dionne I realized how often we sleep walk though our own lives. How we think/dream we are in some sort of prison or have no way out.


All we ever need to do, is wake up.

Waking up.  Ahhhhhh.  What a relief.  Waking up to the realization that it was only a dream. Waking up to the fact that we DO in fact get to create this reality. Waking up to the fact that we get to feel when we’re asleep and recognize those feelings of negativity or pain as indicators for us to wake up. Wake up to your large self. Wake up to the goodness and beauty surrounding you in this world and right now in your life. Wake up to your safety and security in every moment. Wake up to the love and adoration you are showered with daily by the Divine. Wake up to your absolute, true and complete worthiness and that anything you’ve ever thought to the contrary is a lie and only you dreaming. Wake up. Life is perfect right now. We are all safe and it will all work out.

The only thing that truly needs changing is our perspective and by allowing ourselves to move the energy that needs to be moved we get a much clearer picture of that. Feel what you feel, recognizing the story is just a dream and you are free.

Feel the truth of the message that all is well, we need only to wake up!

I love you so much,
Crystal
XOXO